i have to do this, and i hope you will eventually see why. i hope you grow up and see what you've lost. i hope you put yourself back together, not tear yourself apart even more. i hope you realise how you've hurt me, i hope you realise that us together right now in any shape or form, is not going to work and most of all i hope you realise that what you've done is not okay. you asked me to give you one more chance. "just one more chance and i will try my hardest not to fuck it up and if i do ever hurt you as much as i have again, i want you to forget about me for awhile." you said it yourself, so i'm going to do it. i'm sick of being hurt and i'm sick of being lied to. i don't understand how someone can want someone else so much, but fucks everything up for them. because honestly, if you ever really loved me you would have stopped this long ago. if i had any real respect for myself, i would have done this long ago. apart of me is breaking even more because i'm not going to have you around, but another part of me is screaming "fuck you."