i think it was really insensitive of you to joke around about that with me. because you don't know what would happen to me if it actually did happen. you really don't even have a clue. so please don't lie to me, please don't joke about those things with me and please be honest. i'm taking a risk with you again, please don't let me be wrong this time. i'm putting my trust in you which has never been easy for me.