it makes me feel better, you saying that you don't want to force me into anything or want to do anything that will make me feel uncomfortable. i do but i don't, there's just so many things i keep thinking about. it all gives me goosebumps. i keep thinking about it and i just get so fucking nervous and scared i start to feel like i'm going to throw up. what if i do something wrong? what if it just doesn't work? what if this ruins everything. i'm so, fucking, nervous.