this isn't my fault and i have no reason to feel caged in, like there's no one i can talk to. i wouldn't have gotten through any of this if i didn't have all the people i have around me now. so thankyou, thankyou so much. i'm finally excited, i'm going to a concert with my best friend this weekend, i have my art work to finish, i have new words to find, i paper to paint and i have people to talk to. i'm okay, it's okay. i still may have pain in me, but i don't have to feel it alone.