stay, away from me.

i realised that i don't have to be like this, i don't have to put up with you anymore, i don't have to be anyone but myself. that i have lovely people in my life and that i don't need you. that being single is fucking great and i can do whatever i want. that i can easily be happy without you.

i need to see you.

the first thing you say to me on msn, "emmylou! you okay darling?" i love you so much. i love how you can tell when i'm upset just by the first word i say to you. i love how you said you would pay for my plane ticket even though you said you can't even afford a new webcam. i love how you're always there for me. i love how you said i have a really cute smile. i love how as i was walking home and thinking about all the things i want in someone, you all of a sudden came to my mind. i love you so much.

if we are ever going to get back together..

last night you told me you want to change, that you hated yourself for how you made our relationship all about you and how seflish you've been. you said you still loved me and even though i still love you, i'm not going to believe any of those words until you prove them to me.

the thing that really pisses me off about you, is how you'll ask for my opinion, then think you can poke holes in it and how you argue with the things i have to say. my opinion is MINE. don't like it? don't ask for it.

this is true.

i hate that you're upset, even if i was a little jealous of you and her. i hate that i can't help you, i hate that i can't actually be there with you. if i was with you right now, i would let you fall and let you cry and tell you how much i love you. for now i can only tell you how much i love you over the internet which hurts the most because i know that words don't change anything.

choke.

you laughed at my best friend over the interent, that has fucking pissed me off.

this is it. i've deleted your number out of my phone, blocked and deleted you on msn and deleted you off facebook. you are not going to try and weave your way into my life again and tear it apart, i have worked too hard for this to be ruined by someone like you and if you ever try and contact me again, i will coincidently run into you and punch you in the face.