i don't laugh or smile like i used to. i don't have the confidence i used to. my heart still aches from time to time, specially when i hear or see something that i know you would love or find hilarious. i trust one, maybe two people tops and i can't open up to anyone else because i'm scared they're going leave like you did. i'm not the same person you once knew, i've changed alot and i can honestly thank you for that in good and bad ways. you were right about so many things, even though you also spoke alot of bullshit. you walking away was the best thing you could've done, even though you put me through unexplainable pain? even though you just dropped everything we had and started ignoring me with no good explaination as to why? even though you were my one true best friend and even though i loved you? i found someone new, and although he's an asshole sometimes? i adore him. he makes me laugh, he makes me smile and best yet? he doesn't remind me of you. opening up to him has been one of the hardest things i've done lately.