if i thought about the people i've dated you would stand out like neon lights because what we have is simply so strange and so different to anything i've ever had with a boy. i don't need someone who's going to sit down with me everyday, hold my hand and have a deep conversation with. you're not like that, not like that at all. they way you treat me is different to any other way any guy has treated me. (honestly? i think if i ever let a boy treat me like you do i would kick him in the crotch.) you can be the biggest asshole at times, sometimes the things you say really hurt me and really make me cry. but you can also be really sweet, the things you say can make me laugh so hard. you haven't asked for my life story, you don't know much about me and that doesn't bother me. sometimes when i'm looking into your eyes i feel as if it isn't real. like i'm about to wake up or that as soon as i look away you wont be there. you are always on my mind: when i wake up, when i've just been with you, when i go to sleep. all. the time. it's hard for me to explain how much you mean to me.