i try and think to myself "think positive, smile even when you can't find a reason to, start new, don't regret, don't hate, be yourself." but it's so hard to be positive about things when everyone and everything around me are negative shits. it's hard to smile when i don't mean it. (which is alot lately.) i can't start new because everything around me reminds me of things that keep me in the same place. i don't regret anything but it's hard to forget about my own mistakes when i feel like people are pointing and talking. i find it the most hardest to be myself when i've never even known who that is.