As blunt as this is and as much as you don't want to hear it, sometimes you just have to get over it. Life dealt you a bad hand and it's going to keep happening and unless you get over it or find a better way to deal with it, because you can't spend your whole life letting people treat you like a fucking door mat. People don't tell you what's what, you tell them. Don't let people fuck you around because I know you're better than that. Just think, in a couple of years will this matter? Sometimes it will and sometimes it seems like nothing is going to get better but it fucking does. Things change constantly. You think that time you had over complete and utter happiness was too short? Well sadness is the same, it comes and it goes. Situations change and people change and feelings change. So fucking stand up for yourself and get your shit together because life doesn't stop for anyone and it'll pass you right by.