losing people like you are worth it because it means i'm closer to finding my real friends. (some of them are already standing by me.)

i'm going to do good by you. i'm not going to lie to you. i'm not going to go behind your back. i know i should say something to him but that's going past your word and i'm not going to do that.

i love finding songs that describe my life.

hello, i swear i won't be too long. hello, i promise i'll be real strong. wait up, i just wanna tell you. hold up, why are you still here? i've been dirtier than you wanna know. i've left earlier than you'll ever know. why do, you wanna be all listening to me? why do, you spread your arms and tell me i'm free. why do, you wanna be in my life?

tomorrow, you had better not look at me. you had better not smile at me and you sure as hell better not speak to me. thanks for telling him my fucking buisness. it has nothing to do with you ecspecially. i can't get over the fact that you come sit with me during class, offer as much help as possible to me. you're always saying you're always there if i need it. you sit next to me and act so friendly towards me and then go behind my back and tell my boyfriend something that happened weeks ago. something that meant nothing. SOMETHING THAT HAS NOTHING TO FUCKING DO WITH YOU. this relationship has been hard enough without you getting in it and trying to meddle with it. get the fuck out of my life.

i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. i never meant to hurt you, i could never want to do that to you no matter how angry you make me. it was a mistake and if i could take it back i would. it meant nothing.

I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOUR BAD DAY.

for the only class i have with you, the only complete hour i get with you a day was full of you texting some other girl that you've had history with. i'm sorry but what else am i supposed to think? i really wanted to spend this weekend with you and all of my friends making me laugh because i know if i don't i'm going to be stuck at home crying. but you just keep bringing me high and bringing me low, you keep giving me this lump in the back of my throat, you keep making my eyes water and you keep making me feel worthless. you've made this week fucking impossible for me. i went up to english, with it being the one class i struggle to go to, watched the end of our movie for film studies and it had the song that was at my grandma's funeral. i just thought 'this is fucking great, running out of english crying, again.' but you know what? i didn't. i kept my mind off things and tried to smile and tried to laugh, because i feel stupid for crying over boys. but you, i really want you. i really like you and i am falling for you. i've wrapped myself around you, emotionally of course and the only thing i thought would make this better? was if i just put up with you and the bad things about you. i can keep you if i just put up with things that make me cry.