when you were sitting on my bed, with me in your lap you asked me if you could ask me something. i said sure. "what do you see when you look in the mirror?" "what?" was all i replied with. you said then went on the say that you don't think i see what everyone else see's. i asked you what you see when you looked at me with my head on your chest, you said "the most beautiful girl and person i've ever met. i really want to feel beautiful, i want you to feel confident." you then asked me to look in my mirror, i couldn't. i didn't want to, i could feel the tears coming on. i just laughed and told you to shut up, but really? i can't even describe how it made me felt, i'm still not sure. after that you asked me to dance, because you know i love to dance with you. we spoke about what we were going to wear to formal, i told you i wanted lots of photos together. you smiled and said okay.

i wish i didn't need you, but in saying that i also i never want you to leave.

your new scars scare the shit out of me everytime, please don't do it again.

i want you to be there when i'm falling, not only when i fall.

when i first heard these lyrics, your stupid face was the only thing that came to mind.

it's been about a year now, i still haven't seen or heard from you. i've been missing you like crazy. how do you, how do you sleep? i found the letter you wrote me, it still smells just like you. damn those sweet memories, how you do, how do you sleep? there's no reason that your name should come up on my cell, unless you're unhappy but that shouldn't be the case. 'cause you said she was the one, yes you said you were in love, 'cause when you left me you said you wouldn't be coming back but i never agreed. i hate to say it but i told you so, told you that if you left you would be miserable. i guess she doesn't do it like me or else you wouldn't be running back to the past. it was you that left me. i hate to say it but you know i'm right. i can't take you back, no my heart won't let me. i'm so glad you're out of my life you peice of shit, all you ever did was bring me down. you were right, you were terrible for me. still to this day and i wouldn't care less if your heart stopped beating.

i've realized that this is what we're meant to be, and if i'm wrong then we will end up back together. some things happen for a reason.

i don't like that you're the person that dictates my happiness, you don't notice so 'dictate' might be the wrong word. but when you do make me happy and when we are getting along, i don't seem to remember any of the things you've done. i like just being friends with you. i like talking about things we shouldn't, i like talking about 'the good old days' as you call them with you, i like telling you whatever the fuck i'm feeling, i like talking to you about girls, i like talking to you about boys. yesterday i looked at you and realized, i used to be in love with you and now that i'm not, it's okay. i just need to remember that things will be okay.