fact.

i'm worried that i'm wasting my life away. i am all over the place but i am standing still. i let my thoughts control me. if you could hear my thoughts you would think differently of me. i build walls around myself to see who cares enough to climb it. my past will suprise you, it suprises me. i look back on it and think, that couldn't have been me? i don't trust myself. my best friend makes me the happiest i've been in awhile. i wear chapstick like lipstick. my mouth is always dry. i'm always tired but hardly ever feel like sleeping. i love and i hate everything. cats are my favourite animal. i am paranoid and scared about lots of things. i have strange little phobias, obsessions and habits. i hate tea, coffee and cigarettes. i love laughing, knowing someone's got your back and feeling clean. my music taste pretty much varys of everything. i hate it when people repeat the things they say or that speak slowly. i like stars. alot. i think of school as a getaway, somedays i feel like it's worse than my house. i believe in alot, i try to stand as tall and as proud as i can. certain things will break my fall easily. i'm smart in ways that will count. i don't regret - it's just something i've learnt to block out. love me, hate me. need me, want me. hurt me, mend me.