as i watched the fireworks explode in different directions, sung along to the music with my friends around me and felt the pop in my heart, i thought of you. later that night i told one of my best friends that i had given up on you and trying to help you. i told her i wanted a better boyfriend, one that got along with my friends and family and took me places. one that had something going for them. i can't help you, i can't change you. i have finally accepted that and i am moving on.